In her book, Still Waiting: Hope For When God Doesn't Give You What You Want, Ann Swindell tells the biblical story of the woman healed by Jesus who had been bleeding for 12 years and makes comparisons with her own personal struggles coping with Trichotillomania, a hair pulling disorder. Swindell skillfully weaves the two narratives so that the reader has a chance to walk beside the characters in their pain and gain insights and understandings that only an intimate friend might learn.
Swindell writes with vulnerability, authenticity and faith of her helplessness to overcome her condition and of the loneliness, pain, frustration and shame she experienced. Those who have struggled with difficult situations will recognize some of the feelings she describes, even if the particulars of their sources of pain are different. At times, I wanted less repetition and fewer words, but the frequent meadows of beauty of Swindell's prose and the word pictures she created made spending time l…
I have just returned from a trip to Lancaster, Pennsylvania, for our eleventh grandchild's baby shower. I'm looking forward to hearing his name, cuddling his small body in my arms and of seeing who he becomes as a man. I hope he grows into a wise and compassionate person. First, of course, he needs to be born. That day is steadily approaching.
This will be the first child for my son and his wife. This is the first grandson for her family. Many people are excited. That is an understatement. At the baby shower I was reminded and amazed again how noisy-loud excited extroverted people can get. I assured my daughter-in-law that I am excited also in my quiet way. "A child is a miracle," I said softly. I suppose an explosion of fireworks at that moment would have been appropriate.
Perhaps I should explain that I express my feelings by tasking fingers to crochet stiches into a colorful blanket or sometimes to weave thoughts, images and feelings into sentences on a blog pos…
These are questions I have wrestled with for years, for myself and for others, who have had painful childhoods or have gone through difficult situations. I'm not content to accept clichés without understanding more. Perhaps you aren't also.
I also want to see good results come from difficult things I have gone through -- I want to see real blessings and not just hear about it being possible. And so I have been wading in God's blessings more. Maybe you're tired of words and want to hug God's blessings close to your hurting heart.